Prayers Help..

My bills are coming to be due and the balance in the bank is in the 2 digits...yea, this has caused a massive amount of prayers and me calling the aforementioned bill collector's begging for their mercy...Mercy has been granted temporarily for one of the bills...(sigh of relief)..I have to say that I am very impatient..I am sick of this not having a job, no income coming in..and ultimately just wanting to be somewhere else (ie with The Boo) but it being too soon for such thoughts..or is it? I've decided I'm not going to bring it up, I can't bring it up..I already broke my waiting for him to say everything first rule, by saying that I was more than falling in love, but in fact IN love with him. He didn't say it back, but that's ok..I already know he's falling so it's only a matter of time..can't rush that..I listened to the song "Unanswered Prayers" by Garth Brooks today..(he had put it on his myspace for me) and I cried..tears streamed down my face..it's not an overly emotional song..I mean I've heard it before and it didn't affect me at all..But it's different now..and I can relate..you think you know what you want and need and what's right..but only God knows and all those times he didn't answer my prayers were just so I could get to The Boo. This is why tears filled my eyes and I wanted nothing more than to be able to hug and kiss him (if only he were here...sigh)

So while praying helps in all cases...I can't get mad when some prayers aren't answered..I know He will guide me down the right path always..(just feeding my faith..letting my doubts starve..)